Crazy

I'm supposed to be doing school work right now and I'm actually at work, so I guess I really should be doing work...so, naturally I figure its the perfect time to write in my blog! This week we made it to WW! Yay for us - I consider that a Huge victory as now would've been the easiest time to quit. In fact, its where I've always quit in the past. That first bump that comes along emotionally and makes it easy to stop tracking your food. Its REALLY easy to just stop. But, we have not stopped, we have started again - and I lost .6! So, yay again! I didn't come back from several weeks off to a gain, and that makes me very happy! Hopefully next week will be the same, although I doubt it as this week has already seen some slips. But, I still wake up every morning starting with my points again so I consider that an NSV.
I am currently avoiding my schoolwork as I have a small paper to do, several posts to make, an excel lab to finish, and a quiz to take. I am the master of avoiding and waiting til the last second. But, in my defense, I really do better when I HAVE to do something. And, right now, I really don't HAVE to do it, I still have time...haha, I know my mom is shaking her head while reading this. Since, she is the one who has to deal with me stressed when I start to write the paper and I'm yelling and/or crying at how I don't want to do it. SORRY MOM! This is just my process. I wait until I don't have any more time to do it, I know I have to do it now or it won't get finished, I complain all the way through it, and when I'm done I get an A! (or hopefully) I did get an A on my paper from last week, not just an A but a 100! Yay - my main goal of perfection was succeeded! Although in the back of my head I know it really wasn't perfect and I didn't deserve it (HAHA...I am so messed up!!) Don't worry, this is me in a fairly positive attitude ( I know, its deceiving). Its good because I'm completely aware of my negative thinking and I'm laughing it off. See, this is past therapy in the works here people. This is progress, I promise. I know I'm sounding a little wacky right now - guess cause I'm kindof in a good mood, although I'm not sure where it came from.
Maybe its because Whitney won America's Next Top Model!! I know most of you probably don't watch this reality stuff, but I'm a reality junkie and watch most every show I can! And, I'm gonna talk about it whether you wanna read it or not! Ha! So, Whitney was the "full figured model" this year - translation, she was a normal sized 8 or something like that as opposed to the 2 or 0 they usually are. She was Gorgeous and is probably one of my favorites of all time and she actually WON! That never happens, the one I want to win never wins! I was so excited last night...I'm still really excited! It almost makes up for Survivor ending the way it did...but it doesn't cause I was completely pissed that Parvati won that. But, I'm so happy about Whitney winning, I don't care about Parvati anymore (almost). Alright, now that I'm through with my reality show rant, I will try and get some work of some kind done. Work is really the best place for me to get schoolwork done as there are no other distractions (almost). So, I will try and get something done in the last hour here.

Better!

Ok, so I'm sorry. I know I said back on 4/15 that I would be writing more. Now its 5/8...sorry. Its still been really difficult lately with whats going on. My brother and sister-in-law are getting a divorce. I haven't like I could talk about it and I still can't really talk about it. But, at least you know whats been bothering me. My mom and I have fallen off the wagon. I don't know if I'd say fallen off completely, but we fell and are hanging on with one hand being dragged along. (Don't you love my metaphors..haha) This week I finally feel like I grabbed a hold with my other hand and I am slowly pulling myself back up. I know I said I was doing better last post, but I didn't stay that way. But, I think I ate such bad food lately, that I don't even want it anymore.
Last time I posted, I had gone to WW and lost .6 (amazingly enough). Then the next week, I gained .8 - which wasn't too bad considering how bad I was eating. The next Monday, neither me nor my mom felt like going to WI so we didn't (way to help each other out, I know). Then we were out of town this past Monday, on our way back from Ohio, so we didn't go again. We have decided to just skip this week and start anew next Monday. We both started counting our points again on Tuesday. Its been awhile since I did that and actually wrote them down, so I'm feeling much better about it all. I weighed this morning and it actually showed me down. We shall see come Monday what the results are. Hopefully I won't be back up any and I don't have to lose some weight all over again. Its amazing that I've eaten as badly as I have this past couple months and every time I weigh its about the same. I think I fluctuated between 214 and 217. Not too bad for what I was eating. It makes me feel better about after I lose the weight. It might not be too hard to maintain. Obviously I won't be able to eat as much as I have recently, but as long as I watch it, I should be good.
I haven been really bad about reading other blogs too. I guess it made me feel a little guilty about not writing in mine - so I have to catch up on those. I guess I didn't really want to hear about other people losing weight while I was struggling so much.
I was also at the end of a session in school and I didn't like one of my classes at all. I had principles of mgmt and quality mgmt. TQM was ok and I did fairly well on the quizzes midterm. But, MGMT was not so much - I had weekly quizzes in both. TQM had 10 multiple choice questions - and I usually got 10/10. MGMT had 15 and I always got a 12/15. Every time - it was ridiculous. No matter how much time I spent on it or what method I used - I always missed some. It was so frustrating. Needless to say I was not looking forward to the Final. I had the finals 2 weeks ago. TQM went as expected - I got a 97 on the exam with a 97 in the class....WOOHOO, third "A" thank you very much! MGMT was horrible. I felt horrible about it. I wanted to just go through and pick answers and be done with it. But, I didn't - I finished the exam and then wanted a bottle of wine. :) So, I had to wait a week and a half to see the grade. Wanna know what I got? Think you can guess? ..........93. Yup, thats right, I passed. Not only did I pass, I got an "A". My overall grade was a 93 as well. So, 4 A's to start off with, pretty good, eh?
My new classes started last week and I'll get into that more another time. Like I said, we went to OH this weekend for my niece's baptism. She turned 1 on the 28th. And, all I have to say is it was perfect timing. I really needed a break - and it never fails that seeing Katie and Ty seem to change my mood. Ever since I got home I've been much more productive and just more willing to do something other than play computer games. I hope it lasts for awhile. I wish they lived closer so anytimer I had a bad day I could go over and play with Katie and Ty. They really are just the sweetest kids ever. She just smiles all the time and shes in that stage where shes trying to make the noise that you make. I sneezed a couple times - and right after that, she made this loud noise trying to copy me. I sneezed after we got home and it made me smile cause I thought of her. I already can't wait to see her again and hold her! Hopefully soon! So, I think thats enough for now. Now you all know I'm not dead - sorry Caroline. I really should have called you or something, but I had just kinda collapsed into myself, and didn't want to deal with other people. Thanks for your concern!